The Ghost In Black – A Poem of Addiction

GHOST IN BLACK IMAGE

Broken hopes and shattered dreams

Despair begins it’s cruel attack

Faceless fears and voiceless screams

Hosted by the ghost in black

 

Part One – The Man

Abandoned at birth to a foster cage

Rejection fear, his only friend

A living abortion on a lonely stage

Exiled to a cell in a life without end

 

Raised and abused in brutal care

Childhood cries all laughed aside

Hijacked by hurt, no wing or prayer

Concealed his pain from his expectant bride

 

Married their mistake, divorced his ambitions

With a flask he hated but never laid down

A fish in a bowl of alcoholic perdition

Escape and suffocate or stop swimming and drown

 

He built a wall and decomposed

All or nothing thoughts left no way out

Depression welcomed, unopposed

Bones picked clean by vultures of doubt

 

He threw desire to change away

Sped the erosion, his collapse

Routine boredom’s fast decay

Made yesterday’s traps today’s relapse

 

Their last five years were wasted plight

This straw on his back, these latest fears

A final drink to purge the sight

Of hurt and sadness in her tears

 

His wife and child were late fall grass

Their little girl, the apple of his red eye

On a ship in a bottle with a half empty glass

He’d never get to say goodbye

 

Part Two – The Woman

Three years now since they found their life

Face down dead in their living room

His mournful eyes revealed his strife

His toxic blood had sealed his doom

 

No way to support them or means to bother

A stack of bills, unable to pay

Moved back in with her drunken father

Crying on her bed each day

 

Her white picket fence passed away

Where were her dreams and plans?

All collapsing on that day

They died beside her only man

 

The doctor’s pills brought her relief

Numbed the hurt and soothed the pain

She took them to erase the grief

Nothing to lose, nothing to gain

 

Tortured with her only child

hiding, crying, trembling with fear

Her tragic loss unreconciled

Too much pain to form a tear

 

With a bath tub of warmth and pharmacy friends

A way to escape, to turn a blind eye

No way she could ever make amends

She’d never get to say goodbye

 

Part Three – The Girl

Ten years had passed since mama’s death

Thirteen since her father’s wake

She whispered black tar under her breath

Hid tracks of a life she chose to fake

 

She got her wings, a sweet escape

A prison break from an inherent cell

A welcome diversion, a way to undrape

To silence the endless tolling bell

 

Anguish and anger’s burning voices

Guilt trips to nowhere on shoulders of shame

On this path she had no choices

Saddled with sorrow, ridden by blame

 

So many partners, no way to know

Who the father was, no way to be sure

Her baby boy still starting to grow

Was born dependent on more than just her

 

Fought the thoughts of her newborn’s pain

She wanted to live and begged to die

A fatal dose of lost love in her vein

She’d never get to say goodbye

 

Epilogue – The Baby

 In the foster home, the baby was crying

Alone but bundled with detached care

Invisible to sight but eagerly smiling

The ghost in black was waiting there

 

Copyright © 2017 by Chip Schaller

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